The Writing

Don't you think it's funny how other people influence your personality. I mean, if you meet someone who is like you and you dont like it, it makes you want to change your personality to suit you. There's someone at college who's a proper knob, but I think he's just like me, we always look at fit girls and things like that but, I hate him, I dont know anyone whos pissed me off more than him. I guess sometimes you have to just tell them to fuck off and do if you want to do, instead off what other people want you to do. here's a quoete that i haerd to day, it says "Don't judge a man by what he dose, but how he dose it."

Isn't it funny how somethings can appear such bull shit, But when you look closer they turn out to be for the best. I was reading my horoscope today and it said something along the lines of "There's going to be a new member to your social life, and you're thinking about being more involved. Lucky for you it will turn out to be the right thing to do". Now it makes sence since I have met this girl, shall we say Em, and I do want to get more involved with her. But is my horoscope a load of crap or is it for real? I guess when your feeling like this all you can do is ignore the advise and when it happens, look back and say "oh yeah!" I have alway read my horoscope and it has hapened in the past. But I really hope it happens this time, she is a lovely girl.

I hate drugs. Any kind of drug, apart from alcohol, you got to let that go. But they make you say stuff the do things you don't normally do and say things you don't normally say. There's one I hate in particular, Marijuana. My friend say you can't get hooked on it, so why cant he stop. It's so bad he is actually shaking, its like he's a differnt person. I will never be like that, no matter what. And I dont want to let him take anyone else with him down that road. Another quote from Billie Joe Armstrong says "We're gonna get high, high, high, when we're low. The fires burn from better days. She screamed why, oh why? I said I don't know!", I quite like it, I hope it inspires you, and my friend.

What do you do if you like a girl, who has a boyfriend? It's not the easiest thing the come over, expecially when you see her all the time. She is amazing, I mean she the kind of person that dosen't have to say or do anything to leave a really good impression. The first time I saw her, we didnt speack, but I was like I well want to know that girl, and if I'm extremely lucky be more than friends. But I guess when your in these situations you just got to wait, but whatever you do don't be mean and make her ditch her boyfriend for you because you get in fights and fall outs and it just not good. I have always said "I love to love, but I hate to hate more", in other words "go for it, as long as your not hurting anyone in the process".

Alot of people say you cant trust anyone but your self. Alot of the time, they are right. But I beleive you cant trust someone untill you know them really well. Take J, my friend, other night I felt like he was the only person who cared, every one else was lying to me, even him but it felt like he was atleast unhappy about it. But tonight, he lied to me. but there is someone you can always trust, your carer. Whether it be you mum or dad, grandma or grandma, foster parent, aunty or uncle, cuzin, brother or sister or who ever you feel cares about you. Everyone has one person fall back on when the shit hits the fan. There's a quote from a Papa Rotch song that i think fits this subject, it goes "I'll never give in. I just want to be, want to be loved." Everyone feels like this. That's why when you feel like that, like no one loves you, remember that everyone feels that feeling, and it will pass. Just give it time, as long as it takes.

You know when you meet a girl, and you like her, and she likes you, and you already know alot about them so theres this silence, its kind of akward. So you just go do something, but no matter what you do, you slip and make a fool out of your self. No matter how cool and sly you are, no man can stand the sexual tension without giving in. I'm currently experiencing that with two girls at the moment, one I really like. She is B-E-A-UTIFUL, I mean the first time I saw her I was like, Fuck me sideways! And then I got to know her and she is awsome! On the other hand, I'm experiencing that feeling with some one else, some one I already know, my friends girl. I guess in life sometimes you just got to pick one choice and deal with it, because you never know whats the right decision untill its too late. A quote I found was "Our passion is our strength", I think that aplies to everything in life.

I went out tonight. Had a good time, everything went well. But I think I kind of like my mates girl, oops, oh well. Alot of things can go wrong when you least expect it. Tonight was a perfect example, everything was going well, everyone having a laugh. Then something happened where all I could do was laugh. The last thing I thort would haappen, happened. My friend, lets call him J, started fightin with my other friend, shall we say R, and they was only fighting over a girl. Normally I wouldnt laugh at them fighting over girls but, I like her too. I think sometimes you just got to tell people how you feel, even if it ends in a fight, atleast they know. A famous person once said "The truth will protect you from alot of things, with exaption of your own feelings".

Crazy day. I think I made a big impression on my mates girl friend. I was so hyper after dinner, I coulnt stop laughing, my ribbs still hurt. Sometimes I think my life is being planned, like off The Truman Show. It's just everything happens all at once, it's stressing. Like as if all your friends can all be funny with you all the same time. But I can kind of see why. I mean I am an attention seeking, ego maniac with only one thing on my mind, girls, beautiful girls. It's just constant, like just all the time, like a long beep, only... girls. Hormones. And because of my friends being funny with me, I go through clinicly depressed to extremley horny 6 times a day. I guess in these situations all you can do is try to get through as best you can. There's aquote I found saying "Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive; trust your heart", I think you can learn alot from that. I know I will.

I dont want to publicise anything, so you can call me Coney. I think im kind of a mix between JD and Dr Cox, from Scrubs. You know, hard going but i still talk to my self, in my head. And i think thats why im doing this, all the little thorts i have had, im goin to put it on my blog. I think that alot of people say what they dont mean, just to please other people. But then that causes problems for other people, because if somethings troubling you, you have to let it out somewhere. And no matter what you say or do, even if you want it to be the right thing, it might not be. I guess lifes just a really big game, full of choices, but it's witch ones you take that makes you who you are. Billie Joe Armstrong, from Green Day, once said "it's better regretting something you did, other than something you didnt".